I journal more. I also kind of have sessions in my mind. Like I would envision me saying to my T how I felt that day and what bothered me and envision her giving a nice reaction back. I try to stay realistic in what she might say, so that if I do actually say it in session, I am not too far off. I am sorry you are having a bad time coping. Hopefully you will either learn how to cope or be able to start weekly again. Good luck!