Hi Chris I'm sorry to say I know where your coming from. I also was molested. By my Uncle, Aunty and Sister. I was also raped by a friend of my fathers. Can your and my bipolar and PTSD be because of what happened? My T says yes.
I am 37 also with 3 wonderful children and a supportive husband. However unlike you I'm the one who had the stroke recently. And have attempted suicide twice (Please Don't Try This) it is not the answer.
My advice and this is only my advice. If you haven't already, find yourself a good Sexual Assault Councilor. Continue to post here (especially when you are feeling bad and frustrated) everyone here, is here to help - listen - and be supportive. Try starting a blog here (I did this) just so you have somewhere to vent your thoughts (it works for me) I know there are a couple of good books I have read on healing that I can't remember the name of (sorry) I'll find out and get back to you on that if you like.
OK enough from me now. Sorry I can't help but I'm sure there are others here that maybe able to.