I lost my Dad September 10th, 2014 to suicide. It was been hard for me to come to terms with this. He was a strong man. No one would have ever guessed he would do what he did. I'm fighting depression, guilt, anxiety and some panic attacks stemming from his death. I have a hard time talking to others about what I'm going through. Even typing this, I'm tearing up and feeling that ache in my chest and throat. I'm hoping to connect with others that know what I'm going through. I go to a AFSP group that meets once a month and it helps some but it's easy to get lost in the voices of others there.