It sounds like a cliche but I know from experience that you've got to be comfortable with yourself; I have an offbeat sense of humor, know a little bit about a lot of things, though there are some subjects in which I'm well versed, I can be opinionated, contradictory, infuriating, annoying, irritable, angry, outgoing, withdrawn...and that's me. Take me as I am or don't bother. My wife and I(23 years)are so different that the marriage almost ended when we returned from our honeymoon. And I'm sorry I didn't carry it through. She crazier than I am, except I know I'm mentally ill and I've been dealing with it for the past two decades. She's disconnected from herself and has no desire to look inside those dark places that she has walled off. She's not comfortable with herself...unless she's had a drink or two.
Be yourself, whomever that is. Don't try; just be. And don't look for a relationship. Things happen when you stop trying. Nor don't overlook a woman who wants something casual; now & then. Relax and enjoy your life. I have a friend who has no desire to marry and he always has a woman in his life, even if it's for a short time. I wish I could turn the clock back to before I met my now wife. I miss my independence and I miss the fun I had. Don't miss out on the fun. I'd rather with a wild woman for a few days than in a marriage that feels like doing life in prison.
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