I'll be glad to be a pocket rider as support. Sounds like you have a lot going on and that it is causing great anxiety. I hope that it turns out easier than you expect. Good luck. Just pat your pocket and know that I am there.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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