With my AD so low it barely was there (and no other choice since as recently as Sunday night this was too much) this was inevitable and it was also inevitable since that's what happens to me. But suddenly I've gone from not sleeping to exhausted. Some of that is probably my body needing rest after months of getting little. But some of it is I'm pretty sure the depression bubbling over top of the mania.

I emailed my psychiatrist about increasing my AD an amount so tiny my body will probably not notice. I forgot to mention that I'm also tired enough to be willing to just stare at the wall. I'm really, really tired. My mood feels like it is heading down as well but it is still mixed and some manic stuff is definitely still there enough to make it hard to say I'm not manic. I'm just everywhere. The joys of mixed bipolar.