My youngest brat (and I use that term with much love) who is only 24 has degenerative disk disease. She's suffered with it for about 5-6 years now. So young to have that problem... grrrrrrrr.

Tomorrow I am taking her to the hospital for bloodwork, another MRI and a procedure where they stick a needle into her disk area and move it around some to see where the pain is the absolute worst. *shiver* I am so aching for her right now and I know she is not wanting to do this at all.

The results of this test will tell her and the surgeon if the pain she is feeling is actually from the disk that is degenerated or radiating from other areas above or below the disk. From there she will decide if she wants to have the surgery that this doc is suggesting. Basically fusing the spine around the bad disk. This is not an easy decision to make especially for one so young.

My oldest daughter is having a difficult time with her elbow. This last round of shots she just had have done nothing to relieve the pain and her doctor told her that she may also have to have surgery. *sigh*

I feel like this family is physically falling apart before my eyes here. I am so concerned about them and know that they will depend on me for help through all of this. Of course being their mom I will always be there for them, but I'm now having a case of the guilts.

I'm feeling like my plans for the end of summer will go up in smoke. I know, it sounds very selfish. In some ways I feel very selfish, because their health means everything to me. But at the same time, I've worked so hard to get to a point of being able to make something good happen for me for a change, I'm just afraid it's all going to go down the drain....AGAIN

I feel like such a schmuck