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Old Apr 30, 2015, 05:21 PM
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I usually sleep a lot when I'm down. Not always (because I'm always mixed) but usually and especially when it is like this will be where I've been up for a good long time (2 months at least) and not sleeping so my body is totally exhausted. I have however had depressions where I couldn't sleep. It seems to depend on factors that I really don't totally understand; part of it is which came first, depression or mania, but even that is tricky. This was depression, took off into mania and now is going back down (unless I'm having one down day and will be back up tomorrow which is always possible).

I usually have little appetite once the depression gets severe although my meds keep me hungry enough to at least eat cereal from time to time. Same when I'm really manic; then I forget to eat. But with the meds my weight stays the same pretty much so I assume I'm eating something (it's always cereal, frozen dinners if I happen to have some, lots of peanut butter, and lots of fruit because I don't have to do anything to it).

It's hard for me to be too specific because I'm always mixed and the ratio of depression to mania changes a lot which in turn changes how I feel/respond to any given episode. If I truly am going down this time I expect it will be fairly big just because I've been so far up. But it could be anything.

I hope you finally get to see a dr soon. The waiting for a diagnosis and meds thing is really hard. When I was diagnosed I had a tentative diagnosis from my therapist and had a very bad psychiatrist who had no idea what she was doing. She was making me worse so I got into a mood disorder clinic I was incredibly fortunate to live near. At first the wait was months but when I started crying and explained I couldn't survive months more of this and couldn't go to the hospital because I didn't have insurance for mental health at that time I got in within a few days. It wasn't easy to have that evaluation but it was so worth it to leave with a diagnosis and recommendation for medications that would actually work unlike what my dr had been putting me on for the past 10 months.
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