I second what Jen said.

Bipolar is ridiculous and there aren't really rules and defined boundaries of episodes and all that. The DSM is a nice try but no cigar kind of thing. I spent a long long time trying to make sense of MY particular version of Bipolar along side the "rules" etc of the DSMs Bipolar. And you know what. I don't care anymore. it is what it is.

So who knows. You could be in a real "episode". You could be having just some minor depressive symptoms. You could be cycling a little. Whenever I feel like that I just remind myself that Bipolar is ridiculous and carry on.

I relate to you because I have felt and asked what you have so so so many times.