Lostdeepinspace, I don't know why we're feeling like this... it is what it is I guess. In my situation the guy is also alone - well recently he's gotten a girlfriend but as with other girls in the past I know it's just mostly about the sex rather than a more profound relationship. I wish I could say it doesn't bug me that he sleeps with lots of women, but it kinda does. When he tells me he is no longer seeing a girl I feel like I have more control over him and I like it... When he's with a girl I feel like there is more of a distance between us. I don't know why I feel this way. I don't "love" him but I enjoy knowing he still has feelings for me.... I've been having self-esteem issues for all of my life pretty much and I guess I like the attention as it somewhat helps to make me feel better about myself. Though I do have a loving boyfriend and every time I have thoughts like that I remind myself that it shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks of me except for my boyfriend.