Ah yes I understand a bit better now. Sorry took so long to repost hard to keep track sometimes. Sometimes it isn't so easy in these cases. Rose does bring up a good point it is hard to move on without breaking contact. That's a good first step. Other than that the images you may have in your head are probably ideal situations. What Rose is getting at there later and what I'm agreeing with is that you may be making a relationship out of nothing. Which is a really weird concept but see if this makes sense.

Have you thought of bad times with him? Have you thought about when he gets sick and you need to clean up his vomit? I know these are extreme and gross but that's what happens in a loving relationship All that being said love hurts sometimes. You sound like you have an attraction there realistic or not. The most effective way to approach this is to cut comm. If it's meant to be he will come back (there must be a reason he left).

Kind of a side thing here - What about the guy you're with? Are you not connecting? If there's trouble there anything else will look appealing esp a thought driven new relationship.