Thanks for the replies and suggestions everyone. Unfortunately my psychiatrist just brushes it off as my psychotic symptoms. My school social worker was the one who suggested about journaling but she thinks its more due to my anxiety. No matter how many times I try to convince them other wise, they always just brush it off. They never look into it or try and figure out something to help me, which is really irritating.

I also have a irrational fear of men, for no reason whatsoever.I get shortness of breath,sweating,dizzy,out of body experience,etc. I feel like something must of happened to me in my childhood but I cannot remember, I have nightmares sometimes of being molested but I cannot see the man's face.Today when I was at physical therapy, the therapist had to put her hands on my hips and move me around to test my balance and I felt terrified;She kept telling me "Just relax...". Next thing I knew I was in the bathroom and had texted my mom that I was done with therapy. I felt quite exhausted after that. I don't understand why I had freaked out like that. I am hoping to find a therapist to talk to soon, my last few ended up moving or would say that I wasn't trying to help myself.