Hi.

i am not usually a drinker but these few weeks or might be a month, I have been drinking a lot. And to my surprise I have start out some days with a drink. I knew this is not good but it have been helping me a lot. But as history have shown, this is not a good approach to solve anything. I stopped smoking cig last year so I was very proud of it but now, I find another addiction makes me sad and I guess, I don't even gave the strength to be mad at myself.

This is all new to me. This kind of addiction. It really is.

Life is to turn around better for me so I do not need this to be part of my life. I can decide to not be it. I don't want to wait until it gets worse like my shopping therapy did to me. I don't need to continue abusing myself this way because it feels good.

I am kind of tired of doing harm to myself.
Anyway, reaching out as I did before. Like This is really new to me because the drinking actually have made me feel good and I really don't get a lot of those days.

Please give me strength. Right now, I am not doing well.