I imagine I'm extremely frustrating to deal with. I'm pretty much immune to having a therapeutic relationship. For example, the T will say that by now I should feel safe with them, and I'll say something along the lines of I don't trust you any further than I can through you. (Truth). I don't respond to compliments or "firmness." I used to have the ability to do certain "normal" things, and I don't do them anymore. I'm I think I still know how to do them, maybe? It's been a long time. (Things have changed, and no one really seems to get that.)