This has been a problem for as long as I can remember. Just now is a good example. I need to go to town, have to go alone, but bailed because I don't feel comfortable with how I look. The anxiety was getting worse, the body temperature was rising, which made me feel increasingly uncomfortable, which raised the anxiety.

I get really focused on how I look. I don't think I'm especially vain, but I am paranoid about my appearance. I analyse my walk, my clothes, my physique, my hair, etc. If something feels "off", I'm likely to avoid social situtions, or will need to go with someone (usually my dad) because of the anxiety.

This has been driving me crazy for years and years. It'd be nice to know, at the very least, that I'm not the only one so damn focused on my own appearance.

You know, it's been getting so bad, lately, that I have to actually concentrate on my walk, when I walk. I focus on left, right, left, right, just to make sure I'm walking "properly".

I also get a sensation that I'm being watched, or more specifically: judged. Which is to be expected, given how unforgiving my eccentric, biological mother was when I was a kid.