Well, i made it through the night. My brother and his fiance's engagment party. Her family has a condo hear in the quarter so they did the party in the courtyard. My anxiety was sky high before even getting there, so i drank a beer on the way. Don't remember exactly what i had there, but I'm not trashed enough to not type. I'm feeling guilty feelings for drinking , but i know if i didnt i never woulda made it through the party. I been doing pretty good with not drinking. I dont know, my anxiety and everyone else's just seemed to get to me a little too much tonite. I screwed it up again.