Try women from further away. Women in your own area often have their way of seeing men, and when you don't fit that very well, you don't get any attention, trust me, I know.

It sounds to me like you are a very great guy. It literally just is a case of looking in the wrong place. I did the same thing. There is nothing wrong with you, or the women, it's just a non-matching.

Please try to view your life more objectively, please don't end it. I wanted to as well, but I am really glad I stayed because things are changing for me. If I had been gone, all the suffering would have been for nothing because you can't enjoy the new better life that arose from going through it. Yes, it is a long dark tunnel, but a tunnel has an ending portal out into the open, into a new and different place, always remember that. The greatest thing about going through a tunnel too, is that you only see the new place you entered and none of the place you left behind. All you see is the black hole you emerged from behind you.

All the best.