I completely forgot about this post!

(((((((((((((((((((Everyone)))))))))))))))))))))))

Thanks for all of your support. Really helpful to read this right now, you have no idea.

122 days today (if I'm not mistaken). Basically 4 months!

Its been hard. My one support IRL is back now, I just got off of the phone with him - 2 hour conversation. I have a verbal agreement with him to not do anything to myself until Monday morning. He plans on talking to me again then to re-evaluate the contract. Maybe this is what it takes right now, doing it because someone else wants me to not start again - and not because I want to stop. I don't.

*shrugs* I'll be fine. Stay strong everyone. It is possible to do it, just one day at a time.