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May 01, 2015, 03:09 PM
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Grand Poohbah
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Member Since: Jan 2011
Location: Surrey, SE London, UK
Posts: 1,628
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Originally Posted by pinkflower17
Finally leaving the medical hospital next Monday or Tuesday after almost 6 wks for issues from my ED and dreading the thought of the next step. Theoretically, am going to go to Johns Hopkins inpatient program within the next week or so, but I'm dreading the idea so much. I don't even know if I can handle the idea of being back in the hospital AGAIN, this time, likely for longer.
Has anyone else done inpatient or residential treatment when they really didn't want to? How did it turn out? Was it still helpful?
I feel like all I'd get out of it right now is some weight gain and I wouldn't purge or overexercise for however long I was there. I just don't know if I'm ready to give all those behaviors up and I feel like I might just go right back to where I started....If I don't do something, I'm going to die. I get told that on a daily basis, multiple times a day, but I'm just so tired of it all and I just don't know if I have the strength I'll need to do this whole treatment thing right now.
Can anyone else relate?
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    Oh dear dear Pinkflower, I sure DO UNDERSTAND. I've had every ED known to Dr's (and more I've made up myself) and that has spaned around 35 years, I've totally given up on ''curing'' myself and nobody else can either. The way I deal with it now is to stay a low weight BUT, not in any danger. I'm very short at 4' 11" so my low weight actually doesn't alarm the medical profession, however they don't know what I have to do to stay this weight, and those things ARE dangerous. I also understand you feel you don't have the strength to continue, but that's because your body is crying out for nourishment and not punishment darling. I've been in~patient many times, but back then ED's were not known about as they are today, these days they know there's a strong psychological approach and it's not just about ''fattening up''. Try and go for the programme or treatment planned, after all, nobody can actually force you to do things which upset you too much. Good luck and let us know how you get along. XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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