Thanks for asking.

It went as well as it could. And as I got up to leave I instinctively turned to move towards T for a hug then caught myself and started to walk out the door. He said "yes we can, I'm ok with it" and I dumbly asked what do you mean. He said have a hug Jane. So I went back in the door and we hugged.

I guess it shows how good a connection we had that he just knew what I wanted and needed. I think he wanted it too. It was a genuine and warm hug and felt really special.

Tearing up now typing this. I didnt cry in session, sobbed as soon as I got in my car. Mostly I am pushing the emotion away.

I'm just so so sad.