omg, omg, omg, omg, omg. I so don't wanna be a paedophile but thanks to my ocd (i was finally diagnosed) it seems as though I don't have a choice. I am not physically attracted to children (eww!!!) at all but my anxiety keeps telling me differently. Any interest in sex, regardless of age, is now interpreted as paedophilia in my mind so I am not allowed to think about sex at all. Try telling a 17 y/o kid not to think about sex...lol, it gets difficult. This just plain flat out sucks. I don't understand how my ocd yoyo's back and forth from obsessing about killing my parents (God forbid!) to child molestation. So at anytime of the day I will think of myself as either: 1. a serial killer or 2. a dirty old paedophile. As you might guess my self-esteem is right up there next to Justin Timberlake. I just cant understand why it is happening and can't see and end in sight to it. Damn this thing to hell.