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May 01, 2015, 05:26 PM
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Grand Poohbah
Community Liaison
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Member Since: Jan 2011
Location: Surrey, SE London, UK
Posts: 1,628
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Hi everybody. I wonder if anyone out there really understands. Although I've been anorexic (hospitalised many times), bulimic, compulsive eater and severe with the binge/purge routine, I seem to be the only one who is severely restricting who seems to get so very hungry. I can get through the days and into evening, (starving all the time) then when it comes to bedtime I cave in and eat things I absolutely shouldn't. When I was anorexic in the Psych hospital I was never hungry, these days from around 3pm I've starving and think about nothing but food, it just so annoying and makes me extremely angry with myself. I know restricting encourages binging but it didn't always do this. I'm at a low weight (but gaining fast) but I'm certainly not in the danger zone at all. I don't know what to do about this night eating, but it's making me gain too much weight. I only ever eat alone, I can't eat in front of other people, no matter who they are, I think that they think ''why is that fat person stuffing her face''!! I was a very fat child and other children took the micky badly, calling me horrible names. I'm at the point where I really don't want to depart this world huge, I'd rather go now while ''acceptable'' weight. My whole world revolves around weight, food and body dysmorphia. Its getting to the point where I want to give up. Sorry about this depressing message. 
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