(((((((dreamrunner)))))))) so sorry to hear about your son. it breaks my heart for the both of you. but please do not blame yourself. so many people suffer in silence and their suffering goes unseen and unknown to everyone around them. we all know to well that depression has made us masters at mascarading. game face on the outside and at the same time feeling so empty within. people don't know who we really are unless we remove the mask to reveal the reality that lies beneath. dont do the should've, would've and could've thing to yourself. just focus on the now. what can i do NOW to be there for my son, to help him and protect him? unless you just give up on him or yourself, you haven't failed him. remember that! love is the strongest bond in the world and the most healing emotion.

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