Seriously, therapists are so moronic I can't even articulate how much so.

Funny, I made a post similar to this one about a year ago, YAY for consistency I suppose!

I'm back in therapy again at the present moment. It's not my choice, I don't want to be there(I won't go into why I'm being forced for privacy reasons heh). It seems entirely superfluous to me. Why bother? I have zero interest in "changing" in the traditional way psychology sees the matter. She doesn't think I can be a "real" Narcissist because like I said in my older thread, it's that same BS argument, "oh but you're so self-aware so you can't be a Narcissist!"

It's not even that I give two ****s about her thinking I'm a Narcissist or not as I'm finally diagnosed with NPD for good now(even before that I didn't give a **** other than being frustrated that therapy has never gotten me anywhere). It's just so annoyingly consistent, these therapist people seem to be all exactly the same. Boring, inferior intellect, and preconceived notions about me that they never let go of.

It would be nice to have an objective set of eyes to help modify behaviors that are clearly not serving me, but therapists refuse to look at me for who and what I am(and therefore are of ZERO use to me, as they refuse to listen when I talk about what goes on in my mind that truly motivates my behaviors) so I end up frustrated... Which then incites me to play games with said therapists that leave them psychologically shattered by the time I'm through with them. That is exactly what happened last year when I wrote another post about the same general frustration and barring an absolute miracle, it will happen again this time around.

I don't want to "change". It is stupid for anyone to expect me to want to. I like myself the way I am, duh, it's the nature of my ******* disorder.

People wonder why Narcissists don't recover and well, it's not just because most of us don't want to change. It's because therapists more often than not refuse to really see us and work with our actual issues because it seems at least in my experience that they simply cannot believe that a real live narcissist would walk into their office.

But again, I don't go to therapy willingly. Never have. Never will. I find the entire thing to be completely worthless to me, no benefit whatsoever except temporary entertainment that I frankly don't need to pay good money for to find.

Pfft.

I don't know why I'm posting this, I suppose I wanted to vent. Heh.

Have a nice ****ing day.

-Resident Malignant Narcissist of PC aka Atypical_Disaster