Thank you for your kind words Butterflylady.

Having gone though this the first time around, asking all the whys, going thru all the "stages" , surviving the "guilt" that is such a killer,
I am just overwhelmed by the intensity of the feelings.

He was a wonderful son...a joy to both his dad and me.
Trying to rejoice now is such a struggle...even putting on that "face" for the world is getting harder.

Thank you again for listening. Suicide is such a conversation stopper.