Thanks Linda,
This past year in therapy has been such a huge emotional roller coaster for me. I don't know if I could start all over again. I was just shy of 40 when I started therapy, when I should have more than two decades ago. I had nothing to compare it to, I know we hit it off right off the bat, and I really DO LIKE HER. I'm just finding the trust isn't there anymore.

IF I decided to leave her, I think what I'd probably do is take a break from therapy, evaluate my well-being, and take it from there. It was scary to start therapy. But now that I kinda know what to expect, I'd find it harder to start fresh all over again.

Merecat, people here have told me in the past her boundaries were too loose, and I was starting to feel it for myself, but I enjoyed it, so I let it go. I did talk to her about boundaries awhile back, and really the only thing she gave me is that she doesn't accept gifts, but will tailor her boundaries to fit the client. She said to me once, when she was having a hard time reaching me, that her take on me is that in order for me to trust her, I was going to have to know more about who she is as a person. I suppose that's why she was more open with me. And hey, I appreciated that. In moderation of course. So I have to take some of the blame, of course, I allowed it. But, when I asked her about boundaries, she should have told me of her thoughts on touch then. At the time we talked about it, I don't think she had offered me that yet.

I'm really proud of myself for what I said.... although I know I took a risk too. But if I can't be open (without repercussion) in therapy, where else can I?