[ When will I learn and not do stupid things.... :

eh, yes. we all do. it/ you know..the point is exceprtion\g outseves the way we are and decide to CREATE it
i tell you somehting:

once i asked:
"God what is the key ti success?
and i felt the wards "there is none" forming in my heart"
because there is not way "there" from "here".
we just create it by our view poit. if we decise to believe the other thought we will act according to it and will get better resolts, whether it`s about messing thngs up...or whatever it is that we are doing.