@Eden: thank you for your reply. I trust this med bc it was always helpfull to rise my mood, only that it takes a bit more time to feel the affects.
Like you, I don't think I had never a good self-steem but I lived a good period before this down.

@MMBean: thank you for your reply. I think I already know what triggers some of my downs. Sadly, my selfworth depends much more on the outside than on my inside.
It's better to know it bc I will be able to give a more right picture to my therapist.
Yeah, I have some meditation audios but I would like to know about the one you preffer.

Thank you both for being here.