I have always felt like I lost time to depressive episodes. I lost a year of my life to bipolar and bpd symptoms, going in and out of the hospital. Thankfully I got treatment early so I was able to "wake up" at 19 and continue my life from there. I went to college later than my classmates but I did go. I received ssdi for four years in my early twenties.mbut I eventually got it together.mi don't think you can rush anything. Growing up, as you say, takes time.