Hi BornToFly, yes I remember you/your post........and it sounds like you've done just the right thing!!!
And well done on putting yourself/your well-being first!!!!
I can understand it must be real quiet now, after so much going on around you........and everything might seem too quiet/lonely/empty without that (and without her even)
But let's keep the focus on you........you know the relationship and everything that went with it was hurting you, right?? So now you..........you have got more freedom to find things in your life that can actually help you e.g. meetings, a different church, time to rest, time to very gradually build up/on friendships...........so take it at your own pace, hey???
One step at a time, and keep putting yourself first.
Another relationship/a better relationship can always come along when you're ready, but no rush, hey??!!

Alison