Be thankful you aren't on as many meds as I was on a year ago. I was on 12 psych meds at once and I didn't know what was from what or what was me, or who I was. I can relate to your feelings. Now I'm only on 3 psych meds and consider that to be a huge blessing. I can finally feel emotions again, and think, and be me. Not to mention I'm actually doing well now whereas before I was doing horribly.