Jeff,
Like FNCrazy, you both hit the nail on the the head. I'm in the same spot. It's not weird, it's real. So much like you, I will start a project knowing in the back of my mind it will never happen, and 99% of the time it dosn't. That really blows to me, just one more let down to your own self-worth. Which brings more pressure to perform. Circles, that's where I stay. Trying to grab the brass ring and never succed.......