Maybe she could think about honoring her relationship with T by doing what she and T agreed on. The best way to hold someone close to your heart is to go forward as you would know they would want you to. T is very ill and may die. I am certain that T would be comforted to know that wolf is doing the things they worked on. Losing someone is very difficult. Living the life that T wanted you all to live is a strong peaceful way to honor her. It will be difficult at times but it can happen