Seeker Does it ever end? What keeps you pushing?

TheOriginalMe, Thanks. I guess I can't differ the physical exhaustion from the depressed exhaustion. T mentioned that she thinks i'm going back into a depression (i go up and down) so we're trying to counter it. I was able to swim myself back up but its hard to keep my head above water. And even harder when I realize that its likely only myself weighing me down.

"It is perfectly OK to allow yourself to be a little down (either physically or emotionally) from time to time. "

Thanks, I will keep this in mind as I am hesitant to allow myself to get back to that place.