Yeah I'm totally with you. I've struggled with my weight all of my life. I was doing well for awhile, and then my meds and poor eating habits did a number on my weight. I'm now back to being too big and I hate it. It's definitely one reason I don't go out. I'm just too embarrassed about my weight. You're question makes perfect sense to me. I've noticed that people don't even pay me any attention now that I've gained my weight back. My family makes jokes about how big I am and how I don't do anything. It pains me to have to admit to myself how I'm just fat. People joke about "no fat chicks." In my opinion, yes people look at big women differently by not looking at the at all