Matt, I appreciate that yes I do look different than most with NPD in my posts. But it's not much different than how I am in real life, I wear a mask. It's really that simple. I do not reveal my true thoughts about much of anything on here or elsewhere. I keep all that information close as I do not want anyone to see my weak points(yes, I am aware I have those... though I am dissociated from it most of the time in a sense.)

I have more self-awareness than what's typical for someone with NPD but hey **** happens I suppose. Really, either way I am ****ed as far as treatment goes(though as I've said, I have no interest in changing), If I had no self-awareness then no one would get very far with me. I have self-awareness, so therefore people don't believe I have the disorder. Hahahahahah.