Oh honey you have to know there's nothing you could have done. It's human nature to think there should always be a solution or that you missed that ONE thing you could have said or done. I've tried to commit suicide before and there was nothing anyone could have done to stop it.

I WAS my sister's best friend and she was mine. We had our ups and downs but were always there for each other. I tried several times to get her help but she didn't want it. There are just some things that are out of our control. It's been 17 years and I still miss her everyday.

Obviously you were a better sister than you give yourself credit for or she wouldn't have told you that you were her best friend. I hope you can find a way to let go of this guilt.