I am here Mouse for new ears. I think I've exhausted my friends, other forums....what can they possibly say to me that they haven't already said. There wasn't a support group in our town those many yrs ago, there is now but the moderator is "judgemental" imho. when I said to her that I had finally come to the conclusion that our son's suicide was an impulsive act.....her response was "I never heard of anyone putting a gun in their mouth and blowing off their head impulsively." Needless to say, I never returned.

At least here I can talk about "it" and him....you all haven't heard it before.

Thank you for giving me this space.