Thankyou so much for the warm welcome! And it looks like you are one of 'big guys' on this board too. After reading about everyone's problems, it feels as if what I am dealing with isn't worth the talking about. I have been strongly considering a therapist (Only been to one 1 time) but there is a catch. I am with my husband out of the country, and our medical insurance doesn't cover me. It is so frusterating. Been here five months, and don't know how much longer. Some days I am fine with the depression, and other days, just forget it. If it weren't for the housekeeper coming into the hotel room everyday, I wouldn't even bother getting up. But I am afraid of hurting her feelings, as she sees me as 'family' now. I really want her to leave me alone. That is what I am feeling on the inside, but the outside is saying, 'Oh no, you are always welcome!' Smiling a smile that I am not projecting on the inside. I have the 'Do not disturb' on my door, but she will want to come in soon.