I save any email I get from my pdoc or T and I recorded a vm message from pdoc to mp3 so I can play it even though the quality is very poor. *silly* Writting emails helps me keep connected too.

I hadn't heard about object constancy before. I wonder if it plays a part for me. Maybe with men. I get more clingy with men and more distant with women. I'm paranoid of losing friends of either sex. It's like they die when they go away. I switch back and forth between distance and clingyness. It's confusing. Want of connection & fear of engulfment battling it out I guess. Too much of my mom and too little of my dad growing up?