Thank you DocJon, that update helps a lot.

Let me take this moment in this thread to say that personally, if I post something I AM WANTING help/advice/input/suggestions/etc.... Now that is just me, but if you see my posts in the future, know I am wanting replies. I will also say that I do have my own issues and tend to feel that I mess things up easily and am always scared of upsetting others so I have had a couple of replies that have made me back off posting for a while. So, I do understand the caution also and that we each have our own luggage we are trying to carry and unpack.

Lastly, if any post/reply I EVER make appears gruel in ANY MANNER, it was by accident or misunderstanding. I would never judge anyone or want to make anyone feel bad.

Even with the clarity, I am still a little scared of replies because getting that 'warning' would be like having heart surgery without anesthetic. Obviously, it appears a big trigger for me is doing things wrong. I might need to discuss that in therapy.