could have asked her all the things I was afraid to ask. "Are you scared? Am I going to be okay? Will you watch over me? Do you think you're going to die?"

i am sorry that you lost your mom and are hurting so bad. In your post, you answered the questions you were afraid to ask. I dont believe she was scared as she seems to have accepted her death as evidenced by the fact she was preparing your brother, which also answers the question does she think she is going to die. as for are you going to be ok and will she watch over you, well those are answered by your beautiful light experience when your mother came to you and told you everything will be ok. she was watching over you then and letting you know you would be ok. whenever you wonder, bring back the essense of that memory. take care.