Update: so I had still been receiving texts from him all day, repeating the same things over and over "why don't you care that I've been hurting", "why is it such a burden to just hold me when I'm hurting", "all I asked for was one hug. That was it. One hug from you. And that was too much to ask. That made you angry and irritated at me" (total b.s. by the way) then I got one that actually had the actual "I'm about to kill myself" statement in it. The following text stated "I want to die, I don't belong in this world". So I called the cops, gave them what info I had, although I still had no idea where is was. Then my daughter and I got in the car and drove all over the city looking for him. I called his mom and told her what was going on (they are VERY close), and she called him and got him to go over to her house. So I called PD back and sent them over there. Now I'm getting messages from him as to "you know where I am now, where are you now? Why aren't you here?" I told him I wanted to give him time to talk to his mom because he always listens to her. He was just like "sure. you take care of yourself. you do you. not your problem anymore. hope you're happy with your guy. I'm not your concern anymore." I feel like such a horrible person that I can't take any more of this....