Tell me about your first sessions. What was it like? What did they ask? Did you cry?

This is probably the hundredth time I post about this here. I'm trying to convince myself that I deserve treatment, that I deserve feeling well. But it's tough. Everytime I get my phone to call the clinic the voices tell me that it's not worth it, it's not gonna work anyway, who the **** are you kidding

I'm calling the clinic tomorrow. I need to. I deserve to.