Hi Lightcatcher, you are definitely not alone in your feelings. I also feel as though I am moving through life on auto pilot. Today's society seems to have little patience or empathy for people/situations that create inconvenience or discomfort. It's more acceptable to mask your feelings and not disrupt the "harmony" of the status quo. It reminds of the movie Invasion of The Body Snatchers where you were safe as long as you did not display emotions. I have discovered that I must have an outlet for uninhibited raw self expression. It is essential to preserving my mental and physical health. When I do not have an outlet for my suppressed emotions, (whether with a therapist, support group, confidant, through vigorous exercise, or a casual hike) the depression consumes me.

possum220 gave sage advice..go DO something that makes you feel again.

All the best to you.