It almost sounds like you never fully healed. You said you couldn't see yourself with him a month ago but just 5 days ago you didn't want to lose him? Plus you want to move to another country? (I'm assuming). He did stuff behind your back and you want to re-marry? Is this all correct? I may be reading it wrong. I would need more time apart with comm cut to really heal myself. Seems like a lot of unresolved issues there. Kali and I are picking up on those red flags (from what I saw of her input). Ultimately you should do what makes you happy we will be here for you