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While I was still "half married" to my xhusband he vanished in anger during the revocable divorce he gave me because he wouldnt agree to see me during the process, which hurt me a lot, so I said its better he leave me if he doesnt want to see me, he vanished in anger and divorced fully, even behind my back.
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You are "FULLY" divorced from this guy & I would definitely LEAVE it that way.
I know that maybe in your culture a woman's value is determined by being married & maybe that's what's pushing you into these bad marriages because you haven't learned how to VALUE yourself.....but honestly like Chipper monkey said.....
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I think you need to stay single and work on your own issues.
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You need to become more independent & STOP holding onto grief & loss from a marriage that long ago......it's OVER, it's OVER....you were used....LEARN from it & stop being used over & over again.
Until you can learn to be independent & stop trying to hang onto the past & start living in the future with goals & plans for yourself...not for yourself with someone else.....you will NEVER stop allowing yourself to be used or even OWNED by a husband.......women are NOT PROPERTY....we stand on our own with our own values & deserve respect not just love.......if you don't learn to respect yourself.....no one else is going to either....you just keep leaving the door open because you aren't changing anything so you aren't going to get any different results.....sadly, those values tend to attract abusers not chase them away.....being strong & independent usually doesn't allow the door to open to abusers because they usually KNOW they won't get away with it......
But then again, these are more westernized values that women here have learned to value over the years.......& that may not be where you are or where you are even able to come from......but these are definitely things that we have come to realize regarding relationships & marriage relationships in specific.
But you definitely need to know that there are other views on the way women relate to men....& so far you have basically proved that the way you are going about it ISN'T working