I'm sorry you are having a rough time. After my first hospitalization I took an extra week off and work wasn't very happy about it but I needed time to get used to the med changes, see my dr, try to figure out what to do about my psychiatrist suddenly going on leave while I was IP, and just re-adjust to a quieter, calmer world.

All you can do is the best you can do. It sounds cliched but it's true.