Welcome, Dazed and Confused.
I was interested in reading about how you are thinking about finding better homes for your pets. I did that when I came unglued last year. One dog was clearly too much for me -- it was the wrong breed for my temperament, but I wasn't able to convey that to my life partner who subsequently left me. The other dog developed a behavioral problem, chewing door frames in thunder storms, and there was nothing I could do except get here into a safer part of the country.
I used to think it was good to have a dog, because it meant I had to leave the house even when depressed to walk my pet. But after I started living in homes with yards, I didn't even have to do that anymore.
It was wrenching to give up the second dog, because I loved her very much, and I found the home for her so that she could be safe and loved.
I hope you find discernment about what to do with your beloved pets. And that you find therapy to help you.
Again, welcome.
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