Dearest L,

I am happy for you. I'm glad you found what you were looking for. Even if it wasn't easy, even if you feel lost, I can assure you that you've made so much progress and I'm so happy I've gotten the opportunity to see you grow. Thank you for everything you have done for me. I know this is not goodbye and that we will still be able to see each other one day in the future. I don't ask anything of you. I wish for nothing but your happiness. I wish for you to be free. I wish for your good health and that your move to NZ will be swift and smooth. I wish for your safety. And I wish for whatever you put your mind to, to bear fruit. I cannot wait until the day we can meet. I can barely even contain myself right now. But for you, I would be willing to wait because I know how much it hurts. And how it will probably take a very long time. Maybe indefinitely long. But I am willing to wait until you are ready and better and well-rested. I don't want you to feel any pressures. Just relax. And listen to your surroundings. Listen to your heart. Don't be afraid of memories. Both the good and bad. Maybe occasionally think of me. But I will be okay. You've made me so strong. You've really gotten to the deepest core of my inner self. And I could not be more grateful for your patience working with me. I know I'm not the easiest to deal with, but I've seen you stand by me at my worst and at my best. You are the best companion anyone has ever been for me. And that is not an understatement. I will always keep you in my heart. And it is my hope to write you a letter for every day that you are away. Tell you what has been going on. Tell you about my days. About my little happiness and triumphs. My sadness. It would be like you've never really gone away. Because this is what we've always done every day. Every morning I wake up looking forward to talking to you. So instead of being on my iPod messaging you, I can write something to you, no matter how short or long. I won't pressure myself if I have not much time to write or if I forget in a busy day. But my heart wants to be able to stay in touch and keep you updated with how I am. And I know it might sound weird reading everything at once, but I'll probably ask you how you've been, but with no response. I'm going to continue writing my book. I got a really good idea of an outline structure for it now. I can't wait to get started on it and to show you my work. It is you that motivated me to write. And even if I don't complete the book, hopefully you can get the chance to read my unfinished progress. And you'll have these letters as well. I got this idea from you actually. You told me how S wrote you these emails that would send on delay to you for your birthday. I don't know if I will keep this up. But I will certainly try. And I hope that when you do get to read these, that you will be in a better place and that you will be happy and that we can continue to share happy memories and spend precious time together. But even if you are still stuck in a rut, I'll be here for you. I love you L, my sister.

<3 (Y)